The Dichotomy of the Birthday

“Go, go, go, go, go, go
Go shorty, it’s your birthday
We gonna party like it’s your birthday
We gonna sip Bacardi like it’s your birthday
And you know we don’t give a fuck it’s not your birthday.”

50 Cent, In Da Club

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“It’s my party, and I’ll cry if I want to
Cry if I want to, cry if I want to
You would cry too if it happened to you.”

Lesley Gore, It’s My Party

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The space between hedonism and despair. The pendulum can swiftly swing from one to another on a birthday.

Today happens to be mine.

How I feel today, truly, I’d rather keep to myself.

If any gift can suffice, I give myself the space to play the spectrum of emotions in private.

But whatever the ratios, I’m certain to experience the extremes of emotions. I’m grateful.

Experience means I am alive to celebrate and enjoy another year. The greatest of gifts.